That’s the Problem When You Start Slacking Off

Before I got pregnant with Baby B2, Ellie and I were in a great rhythm.  I felt like I really had a good handle on housecleaning, other projects, cooking, baking, hanging out with friends, and generally feeling like life was really in control.

Here’s an example of a typical week in my planner in the good times:

lots of jobs accomplished on the right, lots of fun appointments on the left

Then everything fell apart.

First, Ellie got sick and stayed really sick for almost a week.

Around the same time, my first trimester sickness hit.  I wasn’t nauseous per se but my abdomen hurt, all the time.  There never seemed to be the right combination of food that I could eat that would get me to feel better.  I tried all the tricks (ginger, lots of protein, etc) but nothing really worked.  This was almost exactly how I felt with Ellie but slightly less intense, thankfully.

In addition, I was extremely exhausted and had no motivation (NONE) to do anything.

So here’s what my planner looked like doing those times:

During the day, I muddled along, doing just the bare minimum that I had to do to make it until Nik got home and I could go to sleep.

In the evenings, my habit had been to also be productive – sewing or other projects.  That went out the window too.  All I could do was read and even then, I couldn’t even read worthwhile interesting books.  So I read a lot of really light fluffy books, which I generally avoid.  In May, I read almost 25 books.  I do read a lot but that’s a lot, even for me.

Then, the summer happened.  I started feeling better (Praise God!!) and then we went on a three-and-a-half week vacation to Europe.  Then we got home and it was the chaos of summer.  We were getting lots of projects accomplished but still, I definitely didn’t feel like I was in any sort of good rhythm.

Now, it’s September, and I’m just now trying to get back into a good routine again, trying to keep the house relatively clean, trying to get my “must do before baby comes” list accomplished, trying to make Christmas presents, and on and on.

But, here’s the problem with letting yourself get a little bit lazy:  It’s really nice.  It’s great to just sit around every night and read a book.  It’s nice to not push yourself all the time.  It’s hard to break that “easy living” habit and get back into the “be productive” habit.  It’s been particularly hard for me at night to not just come in from nursing Ellie to sleep and just flop on the couch with a good book.*  Part of this is just being pregnant and tired but part of it is just being a bit lazy.

During the day, Ellie and I have been doing better, going for a walk most mornings then trying to get our key jobs accomplished for the day.  In the evenings, I’ve been trying to balance resting with doing some fun projects.

So things are getting a little bit better, a little bit easier, and probably will be perfect around the middle of December.

Then the new baby will come and life will reset again! 🙂

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*I keep track of all the books I’m reading on Goodreads.  So if we’re not already Goodreads friends, you can join me there, we can be friends, and see what each other is reading!

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Talking in Her Sleep

Lately, Ellie has started talking in her sleep and I find it so cute!  She comes by this trait honestly, as both I and my siblings have been known to do plenty of talking in our sleep too.  Usually it’s just one word but she says it so confidently that it seems like she must really be thinking about whatever it is that she says.

For example, yesterday morning, she rolled over, tucked herself in tightly against me, said, “GO!” and then was back asleep.  Go where?  To do what? 🙂

I love hearing her little voice talking like that.  It will be fun to see what other things come out of that fertile imagination of hers as she gets older.

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August/September Sewing: Christmas Ornaments for Church

For the third year in a row (here’s year #1 and #2), I’m coordinating an “ornament making party” to support the mercy ministries at our church.  The ladies of the church sew felt ornaments to be given as thank yous for donations during the Advent season.

The past couple weeks, I adapted/designed and sewed these ornaments as the samples for our ornament making parties.

angel (designed by me – tutorial here), holly leaves (heavily adapted from this tutorial), gingerbread house (adapted from this tutorial), shiny bauble (from this tutorial)

It is surprising hard (seemingly impossible) to find an angel ornament design or tutorial online that is not cutesy or trite.  I wanted a representation of an angel, one that reminded us of the role that angels played in the Christmas story, but not something which trivialized or denigrated angels.  Finding nothing, I cobbled something together of my own design.  I’m relatively pleased with how it turned out except that the gold thread which brings the whole ornament together is a BEAR to sew with and about 10 times as expensive as normal embroidery floss.

I think I’m just going to sew all the angels and give the sewing of the other designs to everyone else! I would hate to ask anyone else to deal with the annoyance of that thread.  (Namely, it’s much harder to pull through the felt and the ends fray terribly so it’s pretty tough to thread the needle).  I’m willing to persevere through the annoyance but only because I did it to myself!

If you live in the area and want to join in on the sewing fun, let me know! 🙂

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Caution: Think About Ratios (and what we did this weekend)

On Saturday, at the farmers’ market, I bought eight dozen (that’s 96) ears of corn , 20 pounds of tomatoes and 10 pounds of cucumbers. Yes, it’s that time of year again – work frantically to store up food for the winter!

Sweet corn is best eaten or processed as close to picking time as possible. So, Saturday after lunch, we started in on the mammoth project of husking, blanching, and cutting off all that corn.

Ellie loves husking corn (in theory) so she wanted to sit at the table and help too.

That quickly became boring (see “in theory” above) and so for awhile, she amused herself by watching the caterpillars that we found in a couple of the ears.

Thankfully, she was in a great mood so after the caterpillars got boring, she got down and  kept herself occupied as Nik and I husked and blanched and husked and blanched until finally that part was done by dinnertime.

all 96 ears, cooling, drying, and waiting to be cut off the cob

We got started again around 7:30 with the cutting and bagging. Finally, by around 10:00, the dining room floor was clean, the dishes were washed and almost 30 pounds of amazingly delicious sweet corn were in the freezer for the winter.

Then, we collapsed into bed.

Here’s my advice about ratios:  Sometimes, it’s not just the actual number that matters.  It’s the ratio of increase that really makes a difference.

Last year, we froze six dozen ears of corn.  It was a relatively easy job but we ran out pretty early.  This year I thought to myself, “Oh, I’ll just get a couple more dozen to make sure we have enough.” Well, two dozen ears of corn aren’t that many by themselves but that’s actually a third more than what we did last year.  It ended up being TOO much to do in one day.  Rather than doing it all at once next year, I think we’re going to split our corn adventure into two weekends and not exhaust ourselves quite so much.

P.S. Yes, yesterday we diced all the tomatoes and froze them and today I’m making pickles.  The work goes on!

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KIOS: Eating, Part 10: Dairy and Eggs (the details)

This post is part of my series, “Kickin’ It Old Skool: Why and How We Are Old-Fashioned” or KIOS for short.  If you’re new to the series, please read my disclaimer before continuing on.  I’m keeping a table of contents to this series here so you can see what I’ve already written about and what more there is to come.

Here are the details about the dairy and eggs that we eat.

Dairy:

Our overriding principle with dairy is that we only eat full-fat* foods that are as pure in ingredient as we can get them.  We also try to stick to our “local, sustainable, organic” considerations with dairy although this category is a bit harder for us.

Milk:  We buy our milk from a local farmer.  The cows live in the pasture for most of the year (as long as the grass is growing), are not fed antibiotics or growth hormones, and are part of a rotational grazing system (the cows eat the grass and so they poop, then they’re moved to another field and the chickens are moved in to eat the bugs that hatch in the manure, etc).

We buy whole milk but the farmer doesn’t take any fat out (or add any in) to make it the standardized “whole milk” fat content.  So the fat content varies throughout the year depending on what the cows are eating.  Our milk is expensive and we don’t drink a lot of it.  Ellie drinks the most out of all of us (particularly now that I’m not making any milk due to being pregnant).  I drink a glass every day.  We use a gallon a week for a family of three.  (I’m not sure how that compares to most families’ milk consumption.)  We also make sure we never waste any of it.  So if we have any left by the end of the week, I freeze it to use for baking or cooking.

Yogurt:  Either I make it for us (with milk we buy from our farmer) or we buy organic plain whole milk yogurt, which can be hard to find.  We usually get it from Trader Joe’s or recently, we found the Stoneyfield brand at the Giant near us (it’s hard to find Stoneyfield plain whole milk yogurt).  I think plain full fat yogurt must not be very popular.

Cheese:  This is an area that we still haven’t fully figured out.  Local cheese is super expensive and because we eat a lot of cheese, we really can’t afford to buy it locally all the time.  We do splurge on local cheese from time to time – for example, Nik loves the smoked cheddar from Broom’s Bloom.  So this one is still a work in progress.  But here’s what we do right now:

The main cheese we eat is cheddar.  We could also buy cheddar from our milk farmer but it’s really expensive (beyond our budget) and we don’t like the taste of it. So our compromise is to buy Cabot cheddar.  It’s a co-op, the cheese is delicious, and the milk doesn’t have growth hormones – not perfect by any means but OK for now.

We also eat some feta and kefalotiri (similar to Parmesan, but Greek).  Both of these cheeses are imported and we buy them from Prima Foods, the local Greek store.  We probably wouldn’t buy these except…we’re Greek!

Occasionally, when we make pizza, we buy fresh mozzarella (made daily!) from Mastellone’s, which is just a few blocks from us.  It’s far more expensive than store-bought mozzarella, so we’ve learned to appreciate pizza with minimal cheese because wow, is that mozzarella DELICIOUS!!  Mozzarella is high on my list of “foods to try to make”.  It’s supposed to be really easy.

Sour cream:  We don’t eat a ton of sour cream but this is still a frustrating item for me.  We’ve actually ended up buying the the Daisy (cheap) brand from our local grocery store because it’s the only kind we can find that’s affordable and also made only from cultured cream.  So many other brands (including the expensive organic ones) have multiple ingredients, including thickening agents.  I know we can easily make our own so we probably will at some point either make sour cream or creme fraiche.  I know my brother and his family, who live in England, use Greek (thick) yogurt as an alternative to sour cream.  So we might switch to that also.

Butter:  We buy the Trader Joe’s organic butter (both salted and unsalted).  Again, this is a case where we could buy butter from our milk farmer but it costs twice as much.  Some day, I aspire to buying local butter (just like local cheese) but not now.  Organic butter is also harder to find in our local grocery stores.

Other dairy items:  We very rarely use cream, half and half, or cream cheese.  We’re not coffee or tea drinkers and we just have butter on our bagels.  When I do need these items, usually for baking special desserts, I buy the cream and half and half from the farmer’s market and cream cheese from the grocery store (usually Trader Joe’s).  I usually try to avoid cream cheese actually because it’s practically impossible to find it without sketchy, unpronounceable ingredients.  I need to learn to make it myself!

Eggs:

We buy our eggs from the same farmer that we buy our milk from.  The chickens are pastured and the eggs they produce have amazingly yellow yolks from all the bugs they eat.  I wrote more about our eggs here if you want to read more about them.  We eat about three dozen eggs a week.  To me, that seems like a TON of eggs for a family of three but ever since I got pregnant with Ellie (and subsequently breastfeeding and then pregnant again), I feel sick in the morning if I don’t eat eggs.**  So I eat two eggs for breakfast every day and Ellie eats eggs with me too.  Add in Nik eating them occasionally, plus cooking and baking, and that’s a lot of eggs.

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*I know that the two main concerns about eating full-fat dairy (or full-fat anything for that matter) are weight gain and high cholesterol.  For Nik and I, we found that once we started eating full-fat dairy, we actually lost weight, not gained it.  I think this is because full-fat dairy actually tastes good and satisfies us more quickly.  So we tend to eat more sensible portions of all of our food, controlling calories, which ultimately is what determines weight gain or loss.  Our cholesterol levels are also fine. (I know cholesterol and what causes high cholesterol is a HUGE debate in the medical/nutritional world, which is why I’m not going to say anything more about that!)

**Eggs are a great source of protein and I know that’s the need that eggs fill for me in the morning.  I have struggled to find a plant-based source of protein that is palatable to me in the morning and that also keeps me from feeling sick.  One of these days, I would like to wean myself off of eating so many eggs, if for no other reason than I do get tired of eating them!

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A crazy article about how much milk is wasted every year in America (about 800,000 cows worth of milk every year).

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Nursing For Two

my totally late post to commemorate World Breastfeeding Week

in a municipal park in Reykjavik, Iceland, July 2012

Ellie was still nursing when we found out that I was pregnant with Baby B2.  And by nursing, I mean NURSING.  At 18 months, she was nursing every 2-3 hours during the day as well as a few times at night.  Nursing was probably still her primary source of nutrition, although she did eat solid food as well.

Soon, however, the new baby hormones took over from Ellie and my milk started changing, getting thinner and saltier.  By around 16-17 weeks pregnant, my milk was totally gone, as happens to most women during the middle of their pregnancy.  During that time, Ellie started to showed a remarkably increased interest in solid food and also started being willing to drink cow’s milk.  (We had offered it to her from the time she turned one but she never would take more than a sip or two.)

But, she still nursed and nursed.  We went through a week or more in mid-May when she was waking me up almost every hour (every hour!) at night in a desperate attempt to get more milk.  It was at this point that we realized two things:

  1. Ellie was hungry.  We were spoiled by the convenience of breast milk and so weren’t accustomed to making sure she ate lots of food during the day.  We started giving her a big bowl of yogurt and a big glass of milk right before she went to sleep as well as offering her more solid food during the day.  This helped a lot.
  2. It was time to night wean.   Using Dr. Jay Gordon’s gentle method (although we did it more slowly than he says), we gradually, with very few tears, helped Ellie learn that she didn’t need to eat at night.  We didn’t expect her to do this right away – after all, for her whole life up until then, she’d been able to eat at night!

Now (at 22 weeks pregnant for me), Ellie has dropped most of her nursing sessions during the day.  She nurses when she wakes up, to go to sleep for her nap, and to go to sleep at night, with the occasional “I’m grumpy” or “I’m hurt” session thrown in as needed.  She usually sleeps most of the way through the night also, occasionally waking up around 2:00 or 3:00 but usually between 5:30-6:30.  (Sadly, we seem to have an early riser on our hands!)

Most babies who are still nursing when their mamas get pregnant fall into three categories:

  1. Their mamas wean them before the new baby is born because the mamas don’t want to be nursing two babies at once.
  2. They self-wean because there’s no milk, so what’s the point?
  3. They just keep on nursing because nursing is their life and they want to nurse forever.

Guess which category Ellie is in? 🙂

We’ll see if Ellie continues on her “I will never quit” trajectory for this whole pregnancy.  If she’s still nursing during the last few weeks of my pregnancy, then she’ll start getting the colostrum that my body will be making in anticipation of the new baby being born.  And if she’s still nursing after the baby is born, then eventually she’ll get to feast on that rich newborn milk and will be amply rewarded for sticking it out through the dry months!

I still haven’t decided if I’m going to be willing to nurse two babies simultaneously (as in both Ellie and B2 nursing at the same time).  Some tandem nursing mamas do it that way and others keep the nursing sessions separate.  I figure that we’ll just see how that goes once the new baby is here.

I honestly never thought I’d be in the position of considering tandem nursing but I can’t imagine weaning Ellie now and the new baby is coming.

And so, right now, I am enjoying the amazing privilege of feeling Ellie nursing and B2 kicking at the same time.

Three of us, together, in one place, intimately connected.

I am grateful for this gift.

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I learned much of what I know about tandem nursing from the amazingly informative and useful book, Adventures in Tandem Nursing:  Breastfeeding During Pregnancy and Beyond.  It helped answer many of my questions, answered more questions that I didn’t know I had, and in particular, helped allay any fears that I might have had about the safety of nursing during pregnancy.  I highly recommend it for any woman who is still nursing when she gets pregnant again, even if you plan to wean your older child before the new baby is born.

Any questions about tandem nursing?  Ask and I’ll try to answer them!

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Happy Happy Birthday!

Happy Birthday Auntie Meggan!

I’ll eat some watermelon for you to celebrate!

(And Laura apologizes to Meggan for never managing to take any pictures of her whenever we’re together – too much talking that isn’t photo-worthy I guess!) 🙂

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Our Tomatoes May Be a Big FAIL This Year…

…but thankfully our neighbors planted way too many cherry tomatoes and we’re allowed to pick them whenever we want!

So thanks Tim and Brenda for rescuing our tomato-less summer!

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August Sewing: These Shades Will Never Get Done

OK, they will eventually.  I have one entirely (well, almost entirely) done!  The dowel sleeves are sewn on and the cord rings are hand-sewn on.  Now, I just have to motivate myself to hand-sew on about 50 more rings to four more shades.  I’m working my way through the Ted Food Matters series while I’m hand-sewing.  So I’m learning lots of cool stuff while I’m sewing at least!

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KIOS: A Short Interlude

This post is part of my series, “Kickin’ It Old Skool: Why and How We Are Old-Fashioned” or KIOS for short.  If you’re new to the series, please read my disclaimer before continuing on.  I’m keeping a table of contents to this series here so you can see what I’ve already written about and what more there is to come.

(I’m actually just doing a bit stalling because I forgot to write this week’s post on dairy and eggs.  That will come next week instead.  So instead here’s a few bonus thoughts.)

A couple weeks ago, a friend of mine left a comment on my KIOS post about vegetables.  In part she said,

I have learned a lot and am inspired to make some changes (small compared to your impressive diet overhaul) to how we eat!

Great!  I’m glad she’s inspired.  I also said this to her but wanted to emphasize this in its own post: we didn’t make all these changes at once!  It’s been a long and gradual process of slowly choosing another area of food and changing that.  It takes time to figure out how to replace certain foods, to change palates (particularly if they’re even slightly picky*) and to figure out how to make time and space for a different way of eating.

What’s I’ve been giving you in this Eating series is the culmination of four and a half years of research, trial and error, and experimentation.  Even now, we certainly haven’t “arrived” at food nirvana.  We still have areas to improve on, kinds of food that we eat that I know could be prepared more healthfully or responsibly, and food that we probably should just stop eating but haven’t (*cough* potato chips).

I can see how it would be a little (or perhaps paralyzingly) overwhelming to think of completely overhauling a diet at once.  I’m definitely not advocating for that.

Rather, if you’re thinking about perhaps starting to change the way you eat, you can start with just one or two things.  We started with, “no fresh tomatoes in the winter.”  That doesn’t sound too daunting, right?  🙂

Small changes are great!  Eventually, they start adding up to big change if you keep making them.  (And even if they don’t, they’re still worth making.)  We never anticipated that we would be eating this differently when we started on this journey back in 2008.

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*I realize that this could be interpreted to mean that I am complaining about picky palates in my own household and I am most certainly NOT.  Rather, I’m thinking of other people I know (or whose blogs I read) who have many more challenges when it comes to changing their diets.

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